The people i have encountered in my life have been all different kinds of people. They have been old and young, tall and short, but most of all the big difference is sane or crazy.
Let me start off by saying that i have been through allot growing up. Not in a bad way but a way that has made me the person i am today. My parents were the type of people who helped when needed so their were various people who have lived with us growing up. They were mostly "broken" people who needed fixing. My parents were also foster parents who took in teenage girls and also little kids. It wasn't all bad we ended up adopting my little brother through that. But their were some crazy's who influenced me more than the others. their was Rachel who punched the wall and left a hole, she also left a dent in my moms car from punching it. she was incapable of expressing her emotions in a healthy way. but their is a line between fun life loving crazy and the crazy where you punch holes in walls and cut your self and make your self throw up crazy. i have dealt with all of these. But nothing could have prepared me for the crazy in my life now! i haven't had too deal with the delusional crazy before. the ones who make up fantasy worlds and then tell people thats the truth.this is new and it is hard. it is the kind of crazy you can not approach because you could be the one pushing them over the edge. the one who is a problem rather than a solution.
i see it as a test to make me stronger, but it is rely hard to hold on until the end and not let me be the person that i am. the one who flips out and speaks my mind weather or not it is nice. but i will press on towards the prize and go through what god is putting me through and do it with a smile.
